Resp Sri Velukkudi swamy,
I have been thinking of posting this query for sometime. I heard Enpani # 1813 on “Kesava perumanai pattrinal noi tholaiyum”. I thought this is the time to post.
A brief ::
Tamil philosophical songs instilled the interest in spirituality in my teens. I was worshiping only ParaBrahman whenever I went to any temple. I read Gita @ 25 years. Because of increase in craving towards spirituality, I prayed to the ParaBrahman “I am not praying for any material benefits, I do not know what I require, You give me whichever is the Best for me”.
Took up spiritual sadhanas (Meditation, cleaning of karmas through group meditation, surrender and constant remembrance) @ 32 years under an able Guru and continued for 14 years. I practiced dissociated association. Had few spiritual experiences. I felt my spiritual journey to be progressing.
I could not continue sadhana because of health issues. My mobility is badly affected for the past 17 years. It was (mis)diagnosed with bone infection and later (mis)diagnosed as bone inflammation. I struggled due to this, incurring huge medical expenses and also found difficult to carry out any physical work. At times I could not even walk 10 metres. I used to get relief (no cure) and then problem resurfaced – happened as several cycles. Took Voluntary retirement recently. Now it is told as muscle dysfunction. I am trying to improve my mobility through physiotherapy.
I am from a family worshiping Lord Narayanan. I re-started reading scriptures on Vaishnavism for about 2 years. I am 58+ years. Now I spend more time to listen to upanyasam. I have put Lord Narayanan in my heart and trying to remember Him. I have the feeling that Lord Narayanan is guiding me esp., in my spiritual journey.
My queries are:
1. Can cleaning of karmas by a Guru cause “improperly diagnosed chronic physical issues?”.
2. What can I do to overcome this physical issue apart from the medical treatment ? (Including on the basis of Enpani # 1813).
Sorry for mentioning many ‘I’ in the post. This is out of my habit and nothing else.