Adiyen’s namaskaram Swamy. The En pani 1584 was very useful adiyen had similar sandehams before and Swamy has clarified in terms of BhagavAn’s sirippu.
For adiyen and other adiyArs, perumAl is everything. Whatever I do, I owe it to Perumal thAyAr and our Parampara and sampradayam. By gaining higher knowledge every day through Swamy’s discourse and living life in a dharmic pathway, adiyen is getting too many realisations with the current world. As I only do what our sampradayam says (which is the best), this higher knowledge is leading adiyen very close to Our AchAryAs, Alwars and BhagavAn. As it so happens, adiyen’s most of time is being spent searching for Paramporul through discourses, singing (nama sankeerthanam), pasuram recitation, etc.
At this stage, I have stopped worrying for anything as adiyen realise we are not here to stay permanently and have to go back to Peru Veedu. And as Perumal is the only gathi for me, adiyen strongly believe that I have been taken care of bhagavan through Swamy’s Krupai and Acharyar Krupai and so, he will provide me everything that is only good for me. So BhagavAn kainkaryam, AchAryA kainkaryam is being adiyen’s main priority. Since I realise so much and utter his holy namams everyday and night, even sometimes without realising, and i started to always dwell on our sampradayam’s glories through Azhwar pasurams, granthams, Divya desam varalAru, Acharyar kadhaigal, Bhagavad leelas and devotees experiences, adiyen only long for bhaktas association and to reach Vaikuntam to serve Perumal.
As this being said, whenever adiyen gets pushed to a lower phase of life, say, job contract getting over and difficulty to find another work in a different desam, a job that satisfies or at least a job that gives necessary Dhanam to tackle daily life, support family and loans, etc. Since Perumal is sarvam for adiyen, I have told about my loukika situation to Perumal but without forgetting why I’m here and where I’m going to and wanting moksham primarily. When I want to ask Perumal to have a sukamAna VAzhkai, adiyen is feeling very guilty and even upset to ask for loukikA things that are just selfish for myself and my family. Adiyen doesn’t want Perumal to smile in a way and think “he’s just asking for material things” as that will bring bAram to Perumal’s thiruullam.
Adiyen only request some very basic material things and always reduce necessities and luxury. Adiyen is not keen to earn millions or live luxurious life. Just basic Dhanavaravu for daily life, for tackling loukika problems and ultimately to help others and to spend for Dharma kAryams only. Since adiyen have Mahavisvasam to Perumal, adiyen is not shook by worldly problems as I know AbathvpandavA is there to rescue and protect. Sometimes due to mandha budhi and outside pressure from other people, adiyen asks Perumal for what I want by saying “enaku ethu nanmaiyai tharumo, athai neerey thanthu arula vendum”. When saying this, adiyen already have some specific things on mind like job and continuous dhana sambathyam. Hence, adiyen is feeling too guilty to even ask anything “Material” to Perumal. What can I do when I want something in loukika that is basic and needed? (While I take efforts to get that). Adiyen doesn’t think “ I want sukam now and I’ll think of moksham later in life”. Adiyen thinks “reaching Bhagavan (moksham) is the main priority and always keeping myself engaged with Bhakti and kainkaryams and to leave away all the bad karmas but also, to get sukam (satisfactory Basic necessities) until we live in this material world. So can adiyen ask both to Perumal and explain that I only ask material sukam for good life, For providing expected family duties and ultimately only for dharmic living?”.
Is this kind of thinking bad?
Adiyen etheynum thavaraga ketuirunthAl mandha budhiyai kshamikka prarthikkiraen.
Adiyen Ramanuja Dasan
Velukkudi Sri Krishnan Swamy guruvey sharanam